urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er FLiP Sk8eR FLiP Sk8eR 2005-08-31T07:27:42Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:14014 2005-08-31T07:27:42Z 2005-08-31T07:27:42Z wow....i was such a loser! haha...yeaaah...its been a while urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:13584 2004-01-14T00:21:10Z 2004-01-14T00:21:10Z I push everyday...<br />Yet I always come out unsatisfied...<br /><br />This is what drives me to strive for more...<br /><br />Nothing without sacrafice... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:13355 2004-01-10T19:05:07Z 2004-01-10T19:05:07Z Just One-Hoobastank When do you know if you're gonna die?...When do you know if anythings gonna happen to U?...we all think "that shitll never happen to us"...just...don't get ur hopes up....and skate everyday like its your last...<br /><br />FeInT or DiE<br /><br />How bad do I want this....?....<br /><br />Reach for the sky, and pull your dreams down... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:13256 2004-01-07T05:24:19Z 2004-03-28T09:24:18Z 10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately:<br /><br />1) Cold<br />2) Gray Matter<br />3) Hoobastank<br />4) Stroy of the year<br />5) postal service<br />6) celldweller<br />7) Gerry and the pacemakers<br />8) Die trying<br />9) Hole<br />10) APC<br /><br />//09 things you look forward to:<br /><br />1) Skating<br />2) Getting my rowley boards in the mail<br />3) Skating<br />4) Getting my...er...A car<br />5) Getting sponsored<br />6) FeInT skate video<br />7) King of the Road (Vs. DIRE)<br />8) summer<br />9) Sleep<br /><br />//8 things you like to wear:<br /><br />1) Volcom<br />2) Flip<br />3) Vans<br />4) Hoodies<br />5) Jeans<br />6) Pomade<br />7) my wallet<br />8) augh....uh...tampons?<br /><br />//07 things that annoy you:<br /><br />1) Aaron<br />2) Rain<br />3) School<br />4) homework<br />5) rolled ankles<br />6) my dad being a slacker<br />7) Final exams<br /><br />//06 things you say most days:<br /><br />1) Fuck<br />2) I haveta shit<br />3) ::Yawn::<br />4) ZZzZZzzzzzZZ...<br />5) shit<br />6) I'm tired...<br /><br />//05 things you do everyday:<br /><br />1) Skate (I try to as much as i can)<br />2) listen to music<br />3) shit<br />4) eat<br />5) sleep<br /><br />//04 people you want to spend more time with:<br /><br />1) GEOFF ROWLEY<br />2) Kob n Dan<br />3) Matt Gill<br />4) Myself<br /><br />//03 movies you could watch over and over again:<br /><br />1) FliP-Really Sorry (shut up...i know its not a movie...but yea, screw u)<br />2) Dogtown and Z-boys<br />3) Freddy Got Fingered<br /><br />//02 of your favorite songs at the moment:<br /><br />1) Just One- Hoobastank<br />2) Youll never walk alone-Gerry and the pacemakers<br /><br />//01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:<br /><br />1) ROWLEY!!! woo! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:13014 2003-11-24T02:44:20Z 2003-11-24T02:46:13Z im so fuckin sick of this shit man. Just because i don't have the balls to talk to this girl every fuckin day doesnt fuckin mean im stalkin her. And then i go to the school musical, which a lot of my friends are in, and laura just happens to be in it too. So yea, even more of a reason for me to go, right? People need to learn how to mind their own fuckin business. its like i cant do things my way and everything that I do is fuckin wrong. Especially carrie, id really appreciate it if you stayed out of my conflicts and just left me alone. You've had two boyfriends since we broke up...and just because I like somebody, you have to get all up in my face. People...just leave me the fuck alone.......please.....<br /><br />...Just go away...<br />All the sounds around you used to,<br />play along with your torn up head,<br />as the music seeps into you,<br />everyone was trampled dead,<br />everyone could see your madness,<br />slip in till it takes control,<br />everyone could see right through you,<br />I wish you would just...go away...<br />GO AWAY...GO AWAY...GO AWAY!...<br /><br />Go away from all the pain that made you,<br />half as good as God,<br />taken all over in my brain,<br />I recall the future,<br />take another star,<br />make him feel the pain...<br /><br />For every song you ever wrote,<br />take another fucking drink...<br />for every melody that haunts,<br />take a pill makes you faint...<br />for every part of you that hurts,<br />take a needle make it sting...<br />the irony is I'm just like you,<br />a pseudo-fuckin freak...<br /><br />GO AWAY...GO AWAY...GO AWAY!...<br />GO AWAY...GO AWAY...GO AWAY!...<br /><br />Go away...go away...go away...<br /><br />go away...go away...go...away... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:12747 2003-11-17T05:15:10Z 2003-11-17T05:15:10Z This Time Imperfect - A.F.I. I cannot stay here, I cannot leave...<br />Just like all I loved, I'm make believe...<br />Imagined heart, I disappear...<br />Seems... no one will appear here and make me real...<br /><br />There are no flowers, no, not this time...<br />There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find...<br />I'd show a smile but I'm too weak...<br />I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me...<br />Just how much this hurts me...<br />Just how much you... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:12376 2003-10-23T05:23:05Z 2003-10-23T05:23:05Z no one knows what its like...<br />to be the bad man...<br />to be the sad man...<br />behind blue eyes...<br />and no one knows what its like...<br />to be hated...to be faded...<br />to telling only lies...<br /><br />but my dreams...they arent as empty...<br />as my conscious, seems to be...<br />i have hours, only lonely...<br />my love is vengance...<br />that's never free...<br /><br />no one knows what its like...<br />to feel these feelings...<br />like i do...and I blame you!<br />no bite backs as hard...<br />on their anger...<br />none of my pain woe...<br />can show through...<br /><br />but my dreams...they arent as empty...<br />as my conscious, seems to be...<br />I have hours, only lonely...<br />my love is vengance...<br />that's never free...<br /><br />no one knows what its like...<br />to be mistreated...to be defeated...<br />behind blue eyes...<br />and no one knows how to say...<br />that theyre sorry...<br />and dont worry...<br />im not telling lies...<br /><br />but my dreams...they arent as empty...<br />as my conscious, seems to be...<br />i have hours, only lonely...<br />my love is vengance...<br />that's never free...<br /><br />no one knows what its like...<br />to be the bad man...<br />to be the sad man...<br />behind blue eyes... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:12093 2003-10-06T06:46:47Z 2003-10-06T06:46:47Z And all the world loves things, of beauty and intrigue...<br />these two things, ive never had one...<br />born in this old skin, im too sick I can't win...<br />I've lived with this damage too long...<br />My eyes can't behold it, i cannot control it,<br />this feeling thats left in my heart...<br />i've never done no wrong...i dont deserve these bones...<br />please burn up this sin when im gone...<br /><br />and i said that this...is...ugly...to me...<br />the world...is...ugly...to me...<br />you...are...ugly...to me...<br />and I...am...ugly...to me...<br /><br />And i havent become all I want to be...<br />I havent become anything i need to be...<br />i haven't become all i want to be...<br />I havent become anything...(suffer)<br /><br />why cant you look? why cant you look at me? see what I see...<br />Why cant you feel? Why cant you feel like me? feel all I feel...<br />Why cant you hurt? why cant you hurt like me? taste the pain I feel...<br />Why must I die? why must I die for you?...its the ugly truth...<br />well its ugly...<br />its making me painless... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:11891 2003-10-06T06:29:09Z 2003-10-06T06:29:09Z I'm feelin crossed...<br />I take it inside...<br />burn up the pain...<br />my thoughts are strange...<br />just like the things i used to love,<br />just like the tree that fell, I heard it...<br />if art is still inside, I feel it...<br /><br />I wanna bleed, show the world all that I have inside...<br />I wanna scream, let the blood flow, that keeps me alive...<br /><br />Take all these strings...they call my veins...<br />wrap them around...every fuckin thing...<br />presence of people not for me...<br />well i must remain in tune forever...<br />my love is music...<br />I will marry melody...<br /><br />I wanna bleed, show the world all that I have inside...<br />I wanna scream, let the blood flow, that keeps me alive...<br /><br />Wont you let me take you for a ride...<br />you can stop the world, try to change my mind...<br />wont you let me show you how it feels...<br />you can stop the world, but you wont change me...<br /><br />I need music...i need music...i need music...<br />to set me free...<br />to let me bleed... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:11651 2003-10-06T06:20:37Z 2003-10-06T06:20:37Z I never knew, she's gone, she's flown away...<br />Everyone said, she's not, your kinda gal...<br />I'm so alone, this girl, is flowin fear...<br />everyone said, she fucked up this time...<br /><br />Its my, brand new world today...<br />and its my, brand new world, this way...<br /><br />I'll never change, its wrong, so go away...<br />everyone said, she's not, your kinda gal...<br />I've tasted love, it burns, im so afraid...<br />Everyone said, she fucked up this time...<br /><br />Its my, brand new world today...<br />and its my, brand new world, this way...<br /><br />This fucking witch...knows the way....and everything i feell...<br />it's all mine... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:11268 2003-10-06T06:11:51Z 2003-10-06T06:15:01Z Take another motherfuckin hit of LSD...<br />Let all the love inside the world belong to you...<br />Well, I can't understand just why you went away...<br />Too young to feel the pain and bitterness of love...<br />Well I could never understand a motherfuckin word you'd ever say...<br />And all the people that you hurt, came down on you...<br />Well I can't understand just why you went away...<br />I sat and waited for the day you'd come back home...<br /><br />Well it was all good...<br />Well it was all good...<br />Well it was all good...<br />Well it was all...<br /><br />Take a loaded gun and blow my fantasy away...<br />Turn off the lights and shine the spotlight down on you...<br />Well I could never understand a motherfuckin word you'd ever say...<br />And all the people that you hurt, came down on you...<br />Well I can't understand just why you went away...<br />I sat and waited for the day you'd come back home...<br /><br />Well it was all good...<br />Well it was all good...<br />Well it was all good...<br />Well it was all...<br /><br />You are,<br />My hope,<br />My God,<br />My love,<br />My fear,<br />My god it's over...It's all good...<br />'til the world came crubmling down...<br />Oh and I said my god its over...<br />'til the world came crumbling down...<br />Oh, well, I said my god its over...<br />'til the world came crumbling down...<br />World came crumbling...crumbling...crumbling...crumbling...<br /><br />Well it was all good...Well it was all good...Well it was all good...Well it was all...... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:11035 2003-10-05T08:20:02Z 2003-10-05T08:20:02Z When it rains...I don't mind...<br />Let me stand...here all night...<br />Did she take her own life? let me know...shes alright...<br /><br />And everytime it rains,<br />I feel her holding me...<br />And everytime it rains,<br />Are the angels cryin?<br /><br />I'll stay strong...I'll be fine...<br />Carry on...With my life...<br />I'll still stare...at the sky...<br />pray for rain...all the time...<br /><br />why'd you run?...did you hide?...<br />Why'd you leave?...no goodbye...<br />When the clouds...take the sky...<br />does the storm?....give you life?...<br /><br />And everytime it rains,<br />I feel her holding me...<br />And everytime it rains,<br />Are the angels cryin?<br /><br />And everytime it rains,<br />I feel her holding me...<br />And everytime it rains,<br />All the angels cry for me...I'll never be the same...<br />I'll never be the same... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:10987 2003-10-05T08:12:54Z 2003-10-05T08:14:08Z Remember all the times that we used play...<br />You were lost and I would save you...<br />I don't think those feelings will ever fade,<br />you were born a part of me...<br />I was never good at hiding anything,<br />My thoughts break me...<br />Do you understand what you mean to me?<br />You are my faith...<br /><br />Won't you cure my tragedy?<br />Don't take her smile away from me,<br />shes broken and im far away...<br />Won't you cure my tragedy?<br />If you make the world a stage for me,<br />Then I hope that you can hear me scream...<br /><br />When I sit and think of the days we shared,<br />And the nights you covered for me...<br />Every little thing that I ever did,<br />You would stand by me...<br />Everytime you cried it would take my wind,<br />My heart would break...<br />If I could be strong like you were for me...<br />You are my faith...<br /><br />I can't take this anymore...<br />I can't feel this anymore...<br />Won't you take and give her pain to me,<br />'cause my whole life I made mistakes...<br />Can you hear me scream...? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:10618 2003-09-26T06:07:44Z 2003-09-26T06:07:44Z Cure My Tragedy-Cold fuck my dad, fuck all this shit...its been four weeks and I havent gotten fuckin newhere....he hasta drag every fuckin other person into business between me and him....FUCK ZIM...that fuckin faggot...hes such a stuck up bitch....and he stereotypes and segregates older cars....yea, thats right you faggot, go work on ur bmers and porsches...just watch, one day, Imma take this car and make you eat your own fuckin words outta your ass....i hope you fuckin die Zim, go to hell and rot you sorry sunovabitch... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:10471 2003-09-22T07:30:09Z 2003-09-22T07:30:09Z The Race Is Over -INITIAL D FUCK THIS! I HATE EVERYTHING! THIS LIFE FUCKIN SUCKS! NOTHING EVER FUCKIN WORKS OUT! RARGH...i swear to fuckin god...DONT FUCK WITH ME THIS WEEK, or I WILL rip your throat out with my bare hands...infact, so you won't talk to me....FUCK YOU! I HATE YOU! what's that? YEA YOU!....rargh....im lonely... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:10072 2003-09-15T07:13:31Z 2003-09-15T07:13:31Z furikaereba itsudatte<br />kawaranu [kimi] no egao ga atta<br />arukitsukare tachidomaru hi mo<br />chiisa na yorokobi no hi mo<br /><br />kono ryoute ni kakaekirenai<br />ai wo oshiete kureta<br /><br />Ah atatakaku sotto yasashiku<br />yomigaeru kaze wa<br />mada ano hi no mama no mabushisa de<br />fukinukete yuku yo<br /><br />uragiru koto no tsumibukasa wo<br />shinjiaeru koto no tsuyosa wo<br />kazoekirenu hiru to yoru wo<br />mune ni shimatteyukou...<br /><br />wakare to deai no michi wo<br />[kizu]tsukinagara [boku]ra wa aruiteyuku n' da ne<br /><br />Ah atatakaku sotto yasashiku<br />yomigaeru kaze wa<br />ima hitori sora wo mitsumeteru<br />[boku] ni hohoendeiru<br />mada ano hi no mama no mabushisa de<br />te wo futteiru<br />[kimi] wa everlasting memory...<br /><br />ENGLISH TRANSLATION<br />(Sometimes, if I turn and look back<br />to where your unchanging smile was,<br />both on the day when I stood still after walking to exhaustion<br />and on the day of that small delight,)<br /><br />(when you taught me a love<br />that couldn't be carried in my two hands alone...)<br /><br />(Ah, still that warmly, so tenderly<br />reawakened breeze<br />keeps on blowing through<br />with the same kind of radiance it had on that day.)<br /><br />(The depth of guilt of that which betrays,<br />the strength of belief in each other,<br />the countless noons and nights--<br />I take these things into my heart before I go.)<br /><br />(On the road of meetings and partings,<br />while we're being hurt, we keep on walking, don't we?)<br /><br />(Ah, now that warmly, so tenderly<br />reawakened breeze<br />keeps gazing at the lonely sky<br />and smiling down on me<br />still with the same radiance it had on that day;<br />I keep waving my hand<br />at the everlasting memory of you...) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:9927 2003-09-15T07:07:41Z 2003-09-15T07:07:41Z Wasted Years-Cold Don't run away...<br />cuz I can't live without you...<br />Please stay...<br />And I'll learn to love you right...<br /><br />Cuz I was waiting for you,<br />waiting for all my life...<br />I've been cying for you,<br />Dying, for all this time...<br />Cuz I was waiting for you,<br />waiting for all my life...<br />And I'm not gonna lose you tonight...<br /><br />Don't run away...<br />I never wanted to hurt you...<br />Please stay...<br />and I'll learn to treat you right...<br /><br />Cuz I was waiting for you,<br />waiting for all my life...<br />I've been cying for you,<br />Dying, for all this time...<br />Cuz I was waiting for you,<br />waiting for all my life...<br />And I'm not gonna lose you tonight... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:9572 2003-09-08T07:00:59Z 2003-09-08T07:00:59Z For Dave-<br />Take me back from God, I can't sleep,<br />No one hears the sound of your heartbreak,<br />Every little thing was on the floor,<br />Everyone was so in love with you,<br /><br />Well everyone dies my friend,<br />They come down from outer space, blow up all the human race,<br />Well everyone dies my friend,<br />To take em back away from god, is all they every wanted,<br /><br />Well I can taste the pain you're shovelin,<br />Every word you said, and every little monster,<br />Moons over stardust, made me sick,<br />Every word you said, it's all you ever want to give<br /><br />I can't understand why can't believe that they're not there...<br /><br />Well I can taste the pain your shovelin,<br />Pain...comes...down...here...<br />And everyone around you suffocates,<br />I...can't...see...God...<br />And everybody told you not to fall,<br />My...hands...were...tied...<br />And everybody told you not to wait,<br />My...brain...was...fried...<br /><br />I can feel God...<br /><br />"EVERYONE DIES"-COLD<br /><br />I know this song was probably not the most appropriate...but it's one of my favorites and I wanted to put it up in memory of Dave... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:9237 2003-04-25T23:30:49Z 2003-04-25T23:30:49Z Ancient Gods: Balmung, Orca, you two have saved our land by vanquishing the evil Dragon, rooting out the den of bandits in our woods, killed all the giant man-eating spiders that also lived in those same woods, and slew the 327 Dread Demons of Gerlkhrgiher. What is thy desire? Name thy reward, heroes!<br /><br />Balmung: I would have wings, that I may soar the heavens like a holy bird, an angel of swords to strike out against the encroaching darkness that would snuff the very life out of the land.<br /><br />Ancient Gods: Then it shall be so. Arise, Balmung of the Azure Skies, and may the hearts of the just be wind to thy wings! And you, noble Orca? What would you have of us as a just recompense for your deeds?<br /><br />Orca: I want 27 tubes of green finger-paint.<br /><br />Ancient Gods: So be it.<br /><br />Orca: Woohoo! Balmung, hold my loincloth; I'm gonna make myself pretty!<br /><br />Balmung: ... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:8990 2002-12-04T06:30:55Z 2002-12-04T06:30:55Z <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/daddysgirl/quizzes/Where%20Did%20Your%20Soul%20Originate%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/D/daddysgirl/1038274288_MyPicsHell.jpg" border="0" alt="Hell"><br> <font size="-1">Where Did Your Soul Originate?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:8954 2002-10-30T05:52:04Z 2002-10-30T05:52:04Z Iris-Goo Goo Dolls "love does not have an age limit..."~Phoebe<br /><br />that's all i have to say Cbass....take this in mind Carrie... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:8511 2002-10-15T04:12:14Z 2002-10-15T04:12:14Z Make me feel again...slide across my skin again...<br />Let me uncover you...to rediscover you....<br />And I will open up...if you promise to give in...<br />On this perfect night...let the two of us be...one...<br /><br />We will be again another time...no matter what all the others say...<br />Cause I would leave it all so far behind, just to be with you today...<br /><br />So make me feel again...Feel your every breath again...<br />Nevermind everyone....there's only me and...you...<br /><br />We will be again another time...no matter what all the others say...<br />Cause I would leave it all so far behind, just to be with you today...<br /><br />Just to be with you today...<br />(Just to be with you today....)<br />Just to be with you today...<br />(Just to be with you...)<br /><br />......We will be again another time....no matter what all the others say...<br />Cause I would leave it all so far behind, just to be with you today....<br /><br />so....We will be again another time....and I will do all I need to do....<br />To leave the others all so far behing, just so I can be....just so I cant be....<br />...with you.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:8296 2002-10-14T05:14:48Z 2002-10-14T05:14:48Z Iris-Goo Goo Dolls hey everybody...turns out...things ended up working out this weekend...I'm back with the person i love most, Carrie...and life's starting to shine again...<br /><br />to all of you who tried to tell her to push me away...fuck you...you shouldnt be interfering or telling her what to do anyways...let her do what she wants...if she wanted me back, you didnt have to tell her to let me go...if she didnt want me, then she wouldve let me go already...some people really need to keep their asses out of mine and carrie's business...its our relationship...if were in love, let us be...dont fuck it up because none of you felt the way we do for each other when you were as young as we were...to all of you who told her to let me go sunday morning (5 AM)...fuck you...if you all dont see how much im in love with this girl, then you're all blind....i spent a night on the streets...i waited for her infront of her house for 5 hours...i froze my ass off because some people couldnt accept me as Carrie's partner...ill admit i am young...but seriously...you people are not the ones to talk about me not being mature...if i dont want to talk about something, is it really that immature not to say anything? or to want to be alone?...dont force all this bullshit on me and use my age to determine the way i think...if any of you were to ever know me like Carrie does, then youd all understand...i do fuck around a lot...and ive been through a LOT more shit than an average 14 to 16 year old...what im trying to really say is that, i cant believe that the people i considered as friends would try and make carrie let me go...you people seriously need to get a grip...nothings impossible....and so what if we ARE one of those couples that get together early and could spend the rest of our lives together...?...maybe the most of you on the racing team didnt meet 'the one' til later on in your lives or maybe you havent yet...but dont consolidate my love for carrie to how you've witnessed these years of your life....she has every right to be with who she wants to be with...i even accepted the damn fact that if she wanted to be with Jaye, then id let it be...but it seems like you guys cant get it through your damn heads and are so damn hypocritical...if anybody's being immature, its all of you who wont let another human being do what she wants to...you have to take your damn time to brainwash her into what you guys want and force her to do things...for the first time...i've witnessed tears stroll down the cheeks of the person who means everything to me...and next time, tell me i need to be "more mature" to my own face...cause seriously...you arent all that mature yourselves.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:8021 2002-10-10T03:22:11Z 2002-10-10T03:22:11Z Confession-Cold carrie...i cant believe you...you low life bitch...how could you?....you meant everything to me...you told me you never would...i trusted you....but i fucking told you...i knew something would happen...but i wus too careless to say anything...although i did talk to you about it that morning...you went and did it...i cant believe this...i hate you so much...you dont even understand....i loved you more than anything...i thought we fucking had something..."dont tell me you love me if you dont mean it"....how could you cheat on me....with J...?....fuck....somebody fucking kill me...<br /><br />-Kris<br /><br />"take another motherfuckin hit of LSD...<br />let all the love inside the world belong to you...<br />well, i cant understand just why you went away...<br />too young to feel the pain and bitterness of love...<br />well, i can never understand a fuckin word<br />youd ever say, and all the people that<br />you hurt came down on you...<br />and i cant understand just why you went away...<br />i sat and waited for the day youd come back home..........<br />.......<br />"Take a loaded gun and blow my fantasy away...<br />turn of the lights and shine the spotlight down on you...<br />well i could never understand a mother fuckin word youd ever say...<br />and all the people that you hurt came down on you...<br />well i cant understand just why you went away....<br />i sat and waited for the day youd come back home..."<br /><br />"Is it so hard to believe our hearts...are made to be broken by love...<br />that in constant dying lies...the beauty of it all...<br />my darling wont you feel...love's sweet everness...<br />our endless...cry....<br />oh least you could try...for this one last time...<br />ever amazed how bright are the flames we are burning in...<br />ever smile at the tragedies...we hold in side...<br />my darling wont you cherish...the fear of life that keeps...<br />you and me...so alive..."<br /><br />"here we are...in the malestorm of love,<br />waiting for the call, to soothe out hearts...<br />here we are...and dont know how to stop,<br />waiting for the war...to end...it all...<br />love is insane, and baby, we are too...<br />its our hearts little grave and the salt in out wounds...<br />...here we are...right back where we began...<br />waiting for sweet love, with open arms...<br />here we are...just like before...<br />waiting for the warmth...of that tender storm..."<br /><br />"world was on fire and noone could save me but you...<br />its strange what desire will make foolish people do...<br />i never dreamed that id need somebody like you...<br />and id never dreamed that id need somebody like you...<br />no i...dont wanna fall in love...<br />(this world is only gonna break your heart...)<br />with you...<br />what a wicked game to play...to make me feel this way...<br />what a wicked thing to do...to let me dream of you...<br />what a wicked thing to say...you never felt this way...<br />what a wicked thing to do...to make me dream of you..."<br /><br />"open your arms...let me show you what love can be like...<br />it is all tears...and you will be til the end of your time...<br />come closer my love, will you let me tear your heart apart...<br />all hope is gone...so drown in this love...<br />so my love...your laughter is finally turning into tears...<br />and your begging for more, though the end is getting near...<br />come closer my love, ill violate you in the most sensual way...<br />until you drown in my love..."<br /><br />"and all the world loves things of beauty and intrigue...<br />these two things ive never had one...<br />born in this old skin...im too sick i cant win...<br />ive lived with this damage too long...<br />my eyes cant behold it...i can not control this...<br />this feeling thats left in my heart...<br />ive never done no wrong...i dont deserve these bones...<br />please burn up this sin when im gone...<br />and i said that this...is...ugly to me...<br />the world...is...ugly to me...<br />and you...are...ugly to me...<br />and i...am...ugly to me...<br />i havent become...all i want to be...<br />i havent become...anything i need to be...<br />i havent become...al i want to be...<br />i havent become...anything...<br />why cant you look...why cant you look at me...see what i see...<br />why cant you feel...why cant you feel like me...feel what i feel...<br />why cant you hurt...why cant you hurt like me...taste the pain i feel...<br />why must i die...why must i die for you...its the ugly truth...well its ugly..."<br /><br />"wish i was...too dead to cry...<br />a self affliction face...stones to throw at my creator...<br />masochist, to which i cater...<br />you dont need to bother...i dont need to be...<br />ill keep slipping farther...but once i hold on...i wont let go til it bleeds...<br />wish i was...too dead to care...if indeed i cared at all..<br />never had a voice to protest...so you fed me shit to digest...<br />i wish i had a reason, my thoughts are open season...<br />for this i gave up trying...one good time deserves my dying...<br />...wish id died instead of lived...a zombie hides my face...<br />shelf forgotten with its memories...diaries left with cryptic entries...<br />you dont need to bother...i dont need to be...<br />ill keep slipping farther...but once i hold on...i wont let go til it bleeds...<br />...you dont need to bother...i dont need to be...<br />ill keep slipping farther...but once i hold on........once i hold on....<br />.....ill never live down my disease..."<br /><br />"everybody loves stars, everyone fell...into her world...she made here...<br />where everybody rates love...but i dont care...<br />cuz its her world...she made me...<br />you think your half as good as me...the only thing youll ever be...is just a way for me to bleed...on this stage...<br />everybody loves stars...everyone fell...into her world, she made here...<br />where innocence is taken...but i dont care...cuz its her world...she made me...<br />YOU THINK YOUR HALF AS GOOD AS ME? THE ONLY THING YOULL EVER BE...IS JUST A WAY FOR ME TO BLEED, ON THIS STAGE....YOU THINK YOUR HALF AS GOOD AS ME? THE ONLY THING YOULL EVER BE...IS JUST A WAY FOR ME TO BLEED, ON THIS STAGE....<br />now shes old...shes been blessed...take a bow...and confess...NOW SHES OLD...SHES BEEN BLESSED...TAKE A BOW...AND CONFESS....<br />she threw it all away..my angel died that day...noone came...noone came...<br />SHE THREW IT ALL AWAY...MY ANGEL DIED THAT DAY...NOONE CAME....NOONE CAME...<br /><b>YOU THINK YOUR HALF AS GOOD AS ME? THE ONLY THING YOULL EVER BE...IS JUST A WAY FOR ME TO BLEED...ON THIS STAGE...."</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flip_sk8er:7728 2002-10-07T05:34:37Z 2002-10-07T05:34:37Z Confession-Cold this is bullshit....all that matters to you now is you and your stupid racing team/friends...youre leaving tomorrow and you wont even come and see me before you leave cuz youre too damn busy hangging out at starbucks...you even blew off two fuckin hours with me to go to the damn beach with part of the stupid race team...fuck this...i cant take this bullshit anymore...i can believe how cold hearted you are...you never do anything cuz u expect me to just come and run back to you...and yea, ill admit that ive done it every damn time...but thats only because i love you more than anything in this entire world...but you know what?...i as good as dead now......i have no fucking reason to live anymore...you were the most important thing to me...but you know what?....the Carrie i once loved more than anything is now dead...congrats carrie...you were right about how you werent going to get hurt in this relationship, cuz its all on fucking me...im the one suffering every goddam day...i hope you proud of yourself...cuz ive finally realized that youve officialy broken my heart......<br /><br />-Kris...